Archive for February, 2009


two of my really, really good friends started going out with each and i’m jealous.

i feel like i shouldnt because theyre adorable but the thing is at one point i have

had some sort of feelings for them except not really. its like i had a dream i kissed

one of them but i started to dislike her around october but i really dont because

she’s been my friend since freshman year and she really is a sweet person.

the other is pretty much a dyke (which i find hilarious because she’s on the softball

team and in my school the majority of the girls are lesbians) but she’s sooooo

cute. except i never realized and i always tell her i love her but in a whatever way

because i really dont, i just happen to think she’s gotten incredibly good looking.

don’t get me wrong though cause i’m super happy for them because they’re so cute

togther and its just soo adorable. it just upsets me that i don’t like anyone or have anyone.


ryan cabrera!

i hate that whenever i post a blog, the last one was from like ages ago.

i’m home sick and feel like i’m doing nothing. regents week started last tuesday and i went to school tuesday and wednesday for english regents, so i guess that counts. but school started again yesterday and i didnt go to school cause i have a cold. and yesterday it snowed and i went out when it was snowing pretty hard so i became even more sick. well not really but my mom asked me if i wanted to go to school today and my sisters were all “no don’t go” and i knew if i went i’d get worse, so here i am watching fresh prince of bel-air. i was watching saved by the bell and it was that episode where they make the anti-drug commercial and for some reason i found it hilarious. i guess its because the school in the show is bayside high school and i go to bayside high school and everyone in my school does drugs, well not really but definately smokes. like all my friends but whatever. i’m super bored cause all i do is clean my room, the living room, wash dishes and then just wait til someone comes home. i feel like i should practice clarinet because i havent even opened my case or looked at my music in weeks. plus mr. wanat will go all “daicy, you could be in concert band but you dont practice” in his stern voice. additionally, i reallyyyyyyy want to go to school to get my report card and program so i can argue about my new schedule.  like seriously, what junior has a 1-10 schedule the majority of the week? stupid gym, i mean why give me 10th pd. gym and 9th pd. freshie lunch. and the only days i end 8th pd. are tues. and thurs. and thursdays i have to stay 9th and 10th doing nothing just for newspaper. like i’m considering quitting newspaper but i’m one of the few people that are actually dedicated to making the newspaper a lot better and actually go to all the meetings and i always write at least 1 article. idk. i need a new metrocard, cause i dont want to buy a new one. i feel like i should stop rambling and be more consistent in my writing cause i’m reading all this shit i’m writing and i feel like its all jumpy. all right i shall go do my latin and U.S. history homework cause it was due yesterday and i need to write my native american essay. but first i shall watch ellen. omg i loveeee her show.L45 113

thanks if you actually read this:)